needing

so pretty

Memories

i started watching some of the videos i recorded on my camera when i went to the Metric concert..and it was AMAZING :) brings back memories! it was such a great concert..too bad i was in the upper balcony, otherwise i wouldve been able to score some great photos of Emily Haines up close and personal! as well as record the greatest videos ever!!!

i was in the middle of uploading my video and then i realized there was a blurb saying that this was totally illegal :( BAH

hmmm what else.. i just wanted to say that i'm really happy with my boyfriend :) i have to let it out somewhere and i decided i should maybe put it on a blog for the world to read..although i'm pretty sure i don't get many hits! WIN! but anyway, i just feel that we're both so compatible in so many ways...and that i'm so lucky i was introduced to him... he's THE biggest goofball ever...but i love that about him...even though sometimes i do get tired of his jokes..(haha yes .. i really do)... almost everytime after i think that, i say to myself..."are you crazy? how can you be sick of his jokes? if he didn't make jokes, he'd be your typical, boring, boyfriend" and immediately, i snap out of it and am captured again by his humour. that's whats so different about him. he never stops! and i think thats what keeps us going. its safe to say that for me, every single time i see him.... (yes, EVERY SINGLE TIME), i say to myself.. i love this guy..and i get the BIGGEST smile on my face.. and it's something i can't help either... it's so rare that we get into fights.. i don't even think we've ever gotten into a huge one...but fights happen and we get over it. mind you, some of these fights are because of my stupidity, but he's still there. beside me through thick and thin. I'm really glad we get along so well. he's everything i could ever ask for. i LOVE how i can talk about fashion with this guy and totally understand what i'm talking about. how many boyfriends can you do that with? and i'm not talking about just "oh do you like this shirt?" kind of talk.. we talk about our favorite fashion bloggers and stuff..and this is a huge deal for me because i can't even talk to my girl friends about my favourite bloggers..or the fact that we would both take pictures of ourselves and our outfits and post them on the internet! i kept that secret to myself and him for such a long time because i was scared of what other people would think of me!!.. hahaha ok this is starting to sound lame... the point i'm trying to make is that i'm so happy we have things in common to talk about and that we never run out of things to say to each other. i can be myself 100% with him... i think its safe to say that we treat each other so well with equality.. he lets me pay for things and he lets me do what i want to do.. he doesn't tell me what i can and can't do..he lets me do things i want and he trusts me. i can honestly say that i've never thought about dating another guy or seeing someone else because i'm always comparing these people with him and it really can't get much better than that.. i think our spark just gets brighter and brighter and i'm SO excited to (hopefully) spend the rest of my life with...this is just the beginning and thinking about the future just makes me so happy :) i think this is starting to sound like a creepy psycho profession of love/obsession...its not.. i'm just doing this for fun and step back and just realize what i've got..and i realize that i'm pretty damn lucky.

you mekk me heppy "less than three" kekekekekekkekekke

amazing

!!!@#$!@#$!

i pre ordered teh ps3 slim :):) waiting for it! im so excited!

also bought an ipod touch :):)

so excited for all my new toys to come...that should do the trick to keep myself entertained since i always seem to have free time

fuck if its not school i'm dealing with its soemthing else.. THERE'S ALWAYS SOMETHING IN THE FUCKING WAY. its not YOU who's paying for it.. IT'S ME.

by far the saddest thign i've ever seen, who knew a 50 second video would make me cry so hard.

we love you michael. you'll be with us forever. <3

employed

So...i didn't get the job at Truition...but thats okay.. enjoyed my first week at CIBC ..its alright..not too bad kinda boring now cuz its just training..but imsure i'll pick up soon!! its all good!!!!

R.I.P

Rest in peace Michael Jackson... even though you turned a little crazy near the end of your life, we all still loved you and your music. you inspired MANY and will definitely live on through your music...YOU ROCKED!!!

status update on LIFE

SO.. i guess based on my last real blog post, i still hadnt found a job? well, i've got one now!!! here's the situation, i got the one from CIBC..position is a client and advisor specialist.. i basically follow "instructions" sent from clients (which are other companies) and do what they tell me to with their money..so i help monitor and facilitate their funds and stuff liek that..pensions trades..etc.. i dunno.. FINANCE IS BORING AND CONFUSING..but its a 6 month contract, no benefits, i make about 15k for the 6 months im there....

on the other hand, i just had my 2nd interview with a company called Truition as a Web Usability/QA Analyst. they help build ecommerce websites for such clients as MLB, Sirius, Phillips, NBC, etc....my job is to TEST the website before it goes live.....sounds pretty exciting because they say they're getting more and more busy.. also makes sense.. these days, ecommerce is doing much better than brick-and-mortar stores correct?? its definitely a growing trend right now in the retail industry. ANYWHO this is a permanant full time job..probably with benefits and stuff like that.. so yeah..

i find out today or tmr if i get the job...and first day at cibc is on monday.. :| if i get the truition one, im quitting cibc.. not sure what to tell them or how im going to go about doing it yet.... :S says in the contract that they need a 10 day written notice..... sooo yeah . does email count as written?? LOL...

other than that...not much else going on really... life is beginning :(

my convocation was last week..woot! my brother's was yesterday... WOOT..

sneaking in an EDGEFEST photo :) metric was awesomeeeeeeeee along with the stills, billy talent... dang

WE DONE!

gahhhhh

stressed and easily annoyed

still nothing

damn i shouldn't have came back to my blog for a revisit... just seeing those cuba and alaska pictures make me MISS MY VACATIONS LIKE CRAZYYYYYYY fuck cuba was amazing
and then alaska...was just pure relaxation.. no care in the world!!!!

ugh..its about week 4 of my job hunt... i've had 2 interviews this week...for CIBC Mellon...not exactly what I had planned for myself..but its a 6 month contract and hey! it pays! i do have an interview though this monday for a company called Truition. i hope i get that one instead... :S we'll see what happens i guss..its about time people start callign me back!! UGH i really need money

anyway aside from that miserable life stuff, bbq this weekend!! the first of the summer!! for me at least... well does bbqing burgers for dinner and eating insdie count??? :S nahhhhhhh this weekend's weather is gonna be beautiful.. TODAY is definitely hyping it up for me :)

woot

being unemployed

being unemployed sucks.. i have no one to talk to cuz everyone's at work.. by being employed, i'll have new friends to talk to while i'm working... :( i also make money :(

Status update

HA!. status update... my status is currently SEARCHING FOR A JOB!!! someone help meeeeee! i feel like i've applied to everything.... so my next step is to visit corporate websites!

anyway, i miss travelling.. haha i nkow i didn't go to many places but i miss having something to do!! cuba was amazing!!!!! :D and alaska was just at the other end of the spectrum! SO GORGEOUS!!! gah cuba AND alaska were so breath taking... i mean, things they see EVERYDAY is just so amazing to me!! gah... stupid toronto and zero nature.....

ever since i came back though, i must say, i've been feeling so relaxed (minus the stress from job hunting)..everythings going well!! i like things the way they are.. (minus the no income) LOL.... i hope every one's doing good too!

things i want to do in the summer

OK! time to somewhat plan out some goals for the summer!

• go to yogoberry cuz it looks so delicious
• go to taste of danforth (is that in the summer?)
• get a job
• get my g license
• graduate
• celebrate my birthday (with a bang!)
• watch the boxset for several tv shows (hopefully with someone... anyone??)
  

hahaah ok this list isnt as good as i thouhgt...but the license, job, and yogoberri are pretty solid goals hahaha :)

btw....i'm going to cuba.. what medicine should i bring if my stomach is feeling uneasy?? is that what peptol bismol is for?? are there any PILL substitutes?

almost there!

gah! finished my second exam today!!! just one take home due and my marketing one left to go!!! SO EXCITED..these 4 years went by SO fast and i can honestly say i had a better time in univ than in high school... met much better friends that i can probably call real LIFE friends... :)

on the other hand theres this stupid show on MTV ..reality show ... of course. called College life... and these kids think its gonna be SOO DIFFERENT... maybe it is in the states...but..who nkows... they hype it up so much.. and they look so OLD...!!! *sigh* do i wish i was a freshman again? nahh..well sorta.. :(

us against the world

"if the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more
i would still have you
if we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war
i'll be fighting with you"
- christina milian

such a good song!

first exam tomorrow! and i am shitting bricks... 2 books.. and i havent even touched the second book :( good thing its open book...but that just means i KNOW i wont be able to finish on time! i better write fast :(

Officially starting the countdown!

28 more days!!!!!

GAh.. I can't believe it. LOL hmm yeah.... all just words. To be honest, this whole "i'm done post-secondary school. i'm done all schooling. been in school for 16 years and now its all over"..... all hasnt hit me yet.. we'll see how this countdown progresses.. and you'll be able to read as i go along..

here's what i predict, im just gonna get angier and more stressed with stupid people...but then i'll shortly realize...it's the last i'll ever have to deal with it... i'm could SLACK off and not study as hard...but knowing me, i'll study just the same, and just slack a little bit. we'll see whata happens

so far, though, i know i have 1 small assigment left, 1 term project due..(a website i'm working on) and a presentation for my year end project... and then exams... not too bad. i think i can do it without too much stress....

all i gotta think about is how excited i will be for my trips!!!

yeah yeah yeahs

everyone also needs yeah yeah yeahs in their lives :)

IT'S BLITZ!!

one of the worst

shiet... so i had an essay due today at 9am.. guess what time i woke up? 9:10am... from a text from jeff.. how did i wake up from a text msg tone that was like .. less than a 1second long... and not to a LOUD LONG BUZZING alarm tone?! did it not go off?? AAH I DUNNO

so i basically rush out.. im on the bus by about 9:15-9:20 (yea i get ready FAST...) and i get downtown by 10:15.... i went to the classroom to see if he was lingering around..he wasnt there :( so my next alternative was to find his office hours and go there... thankfully angela looked up where and when he was teaching next..and THANKFULLY he was teaching a class today at 10-12.. so i rushed over..and here i am now..sitting outside his next classroom.. its 11:03am.. and im waiting for him to call a break so i can slip in and hand it in. and explain that im from his previous class...or wait till 12 and wait till hes done lecturing altogether... UGH..

oh yea... i'm sure most of you know about my giant paper clip hanging on my bag?? well yeah.... i heard it drop at finch station :(:( and i couldnt turn back and look for it.. i couldnt risk it :(:( SO LONG GIANT PAPER CLIP :(:(

fantasies

everyone needs metric in their lives.. new album guy! woot!

just waiting

EFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

of all the times to be sick why now? and this is not the.. coughing, sore throat, runny nose kind...(maybe it'll come later) ..its the body achin, ear aching, head pain, and cold sweats kind.. i swear.. i can feel really hot one minute, and the next im shivering cuz its so cold.. EFFFF need to study for a test and finish 2 assignments by thurs/fri

graduation

on a happier note, I AM GRADUATING...forever!!!! so i THOUGHT that my prof was going to take me back after i graduate, but then he goes and tells me to continue to work until i grad and then the summer RA will take over...uhh..yeah.. so i'm pretty confused .. BUT anyway, i think ken will letme go away for 2 weeks nonetheless....

2 weeks you ask??

welllll i'm for sure going on a trip to either dominican, mexico, or cuba with mike and ryan....thats 100%.. we'd leave may 1st, and come back on the 8th... THEN...... if all goes well and my mom is able to change it, im gonna go on an alaskan cruise on the 10th :):) SOOOOO i'm desperately keeping my fingers crossed..... and you know, i really really wanted to go to europe...but i guess i gotta make sacrifices and i can't get everything i want... so i'm settlign for a trip to somewhere tropical, and then heading north east?? to alaska with my family :) .. two grad trips!!! yayy!!!!!

must not jinx this tho... :) oh man, alaska will be beautifullllll!!!! AAH okay.. i have to stop getting too excited..for now, must look forward to all the TANNING that will happen... YES.. cancer to my skin... COME TO ME!!!!! oh i'm too excited... i need this break... err not even a break cuz its not like i'm going BACK to school..i need these... celebatory trips!!!!:D:D i know my parents will probably spoilme too if i go on this cruise...(actually...maybe not hahaha) but still :) good bonding experience? keep your fingers crossed for meeeee...

25 random things..minus the tagging

1. i love music...usually ones that aren't mainstream of course, but open to all kinds... my favourite bands are probably metric, pinback, the stills and, we are scientists

2. i have really crooked pinkies..but when someone mentions them, i immediately like to hide them cuz i hate them......a lot.

3. i'm a techy

4. i dont really obsess over any celebrities...at all... just gossip :)

5. i like first person shooting video games

6. i have a secret passion for cooking... i love to cook and im almost always tuned into foodtv :)

7. i have a secret passion for fashion... you know, alexander wang, rick owens, (insert more crazy fashion designers here),.... u know.. like erin wasson type fashion.. :)..(LOVE: fashiontoast, lulu, and childhoodflames..you'll know if you know)

8. i watch a TON of tv shows....gossip girl, one tree hill, how i met your mother, jon and kate, the city, 90210, heroes, the office...etc.

9. i've been going to the gym 3 times a week since the beginning of the year (a month HA!) and i'm determined to keep it up :)

10. i LOVE tea!

11. i love strong coffee with 2 milks 2 sugars (cream is fat)

12. ive stopped looking for a full time job because everyone's looking for people to start now. I'm looking to be a business analyst.

13. yes, i still have a job as a research assistant and i might actually be a co-author for a paper that will be published to be in an academic journal or presented at a conference by the professor i'm working for :)

14. i can't wait till i move out of my house to live on my own, or with a friend, or whoever. as long as im out of the house. like, im counting the days till im out of here

15. i LOVE interior design... i LOVE looking at new home magazines for decor ideas... i LOVE walking around ikea for ideas too... i will NEVER be able to recreate it though so my hope is to hire a designer..... HA yea right..but really... i want to.

16. related to the last one, i've got ZERO CREATIVE JUICES in my body. seriously. im the most UNcreative person ever, hence the hiring of a designer for my home

17. i HATE scary movies

18. i HATE cilantro

19. i'm not a picky eater and will eat almost everything

20. i'm a hopeless romantic.... i'll want everything in movies to happen to me. like actually. :) sorry jeff.

21. i give good advice apparently

22. i find it fun to code my assignments with html, sql, and visual basic..(THE BASICS)..

23. i find it fun to do my assignments on graphics programs like Illustrator, photoshop, etc.


25. i just bought a new cellphone, and i can't even use it because its not unlocked yet.. waiting for the unlock code so i can put my SIM card in it to use it.. so my phone is just there, screaming to be used and i can't even use it :(

grad trip

looks like my grad trip dream is close to not happening :'( i really want to go to paris.. im gonna look for someone to go with.. even if its just with my mom... i need to go to europe!!

i found this tour package its like 11 days and its 1750... but every morning you eat breakfast thats included and u saty in hotels!! we also stop in london, paris, venice and rome.... :( oh man i need to go!!!!! someone come with meeeeeeee :(

jackpot

damn i just hit one for sure.. i've discovered the best band in the world...

CocoRosie.. they've got such a different sound its awsome...super mellow for my liking

feeling good

i signed up for the gym agian like i said i would! time to push myself .. im getting fatter.. lol wondering if should start yoga with my mom... but then i'd have to buy accessories and crap.. ugh...

holiday is over

boo....my holiday is over..although i dont start school till thursday, everyone else is starting and i dont have anything to do...well actually i have a paper to write for work -___- .. i'll slwoly work on that... my holiday was good... i was home for like a week altogether in december... it was good!!! now i have to work and SAVE...omg what am i gonna do... --____-

happy 2009!

new years resolutions?? don't really do that.. who actually follows them? but i guess if i had to choose, they'd be:

• exercise and lose weight? (just like everyone else)
  
• eat healthier
• continue to be carefree, not worrying about what other people have to say about me behind my bad
• be a better person
• put the past in the past and live for the future
  
• find a job
• save money for grad trip